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I just got home after a hard day at work. I have a damn migraine starting at the sides of my head, i HATE those.

Today confirmed my thoughts of "DAMN, i've gained so much since college and my breakup". I was walking to my meeting, minding my damn business in the hot ass sun. As I was carrying the laptop, projector, agendas, coffee and a bag of cookies, I saw a bunch of old co-workers walking towards me. I gave a polite "hi ladies" and a quick smile as I struggled with my bags. One of them stops me and says the most DREADED words you could EVER say to a woman when she isn't pregnant.


"Oh, When are you expecting??"

O_o seriously bitch?

I gave her that stank eye look and said "NO, im not". She had that "oh shit" look on her face as she walked backwards towards the other girls that left her behind.

Usually stuff like that doesn't get to me, i'll just brush it off and laugh. For some reason, that REALLY got to me. Lately i've been hating myself for letting my body just GO. I use to love the way I felt and looked and never gave a thought to hating how my body looked. I feel like I want to just crawl under a rock and NEVER come out. After the whole breakup with whats his dumb face, I've been feeling so useless. I know I should NEVER let any person in this world make me feel feel that way, but I do. He's made me feel ugly, useless, fat and worst of all, that no one will EVER fall in love with me. I feel like such a failure in everything that I do now. DAMN.

Anyways, so I leave work at 3 on the dot. SCREW THAT, I won't stay at work for even 1 more minute than i have to. As I'm driving home, I could start to feel my eyes water and that heavy feeling that you're about to cry your eyes out. I could NOT wait to just get home and crawl into bed and be left alone. Boy was I WRONG.

I get home to find out my mom let herself into the house.

FUCK MY LIFE.